Sunday, February 15, 2009

Kenya

Roger is in Kenya with Student Life and Compassion - read about it here. Check out his pictures on Facebook.

We've done well while he's been away - friends came into town and that helped Mommy's emotional state, spend the night parties at Grams' house and a well place movie night and picnic lunch have all helped to make the time pass a little faster for the kids. Kinsley fell ill to some weird virus that had her sick in the mornings and fever in the afternoon, but she seems to be on the mend. And at least it's not another round of chicken pox.

We can't wait for Wednesday's trip to the airport!!!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Redemption

Many people ask me how Donald and Gretchen are doing. Here's a glimpse of what God is doing at Community of Faith in Houston. Check it out when you have 10 minutes: Cardboard Testimonies

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Different.

Galatians 3:26-4:7
You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise. What I am saying is that as long as the heir is a child, he is no different from a slave, although he owns the whole estate. He is subject to guardians and trustees until the time set by his father. So also, when we were children, we were in slavery under the basic principles of the world. But when the time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under law, to redeem those under law, that we might receive the full rights of sons. Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, “Abba, Father.” So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir.

Our pastor is preaching through Galatians right now, and this was the passage from this last week. I wanted to blog about this a little because for me it represents a turn in my thinking over the past 10 years. I grew up pretty much doing the right things, getting the good grades, being the good kid, etc. At heart, I am a perfectionist. I value things being done "right". And if you can't do something right, please get out of my way so that I can do it right. And if I can't do it right (mostly b/c I've never tried it before and don't want to fail at it) then I will ignore it or procrastinate so long that I'm nauseous at the thought of having to do it. Ah, a glimpse in the thinking of child/teenage/20 something Becca.
Somethings happened @ 10 years ago. I don't know that it was any one thing so I'll need to say somethings. I can definitely point to markers along the way that showed me how God was changing my perspective. But only in the last few years have I truly believed that my thinking about God and how he thinks about me has really changed.
David (pastor) mentioned on Sunday that people who don't get this passage can live a very productive, "Christian", charitable, even admirable life all the while seeing themselves as nothing more than a servant (paraphrase). I'm not against a servant heart and actions that show the love of Christ, but somehow I missed that definition of servant. I was thinking servant as slave. I am a slave. I must do everything my master tells me to do to the best of my ability and then God will come in and give me grace for where I didn't get it right (even though that really makes Him sad to do so - I'll try harder next time, God), and then maybe God will bless me (with things I don't deserve and might not really even want, but I'll be grateful b/c after all I'm lucky that He's even doing anything in my life right now based on the way that I've let Him down).
Still reading? Ready to call me with a list of scripture and a good round of advice on how not to feel this way? People have tried it on me, and I've tried it on them. Well intentioned, loving people who really wanted me to get how God feels about me. They really did. I really do now for others. But I'm afraid that many times all people hear me say is "do this, do that, don't do this, think this way, don't think that way." I'm sorry. That's not my heart for you.
If I could pinpoint one catalyst that has changed my thinking about God it's the realization that God really loves me. Duh! Didn't you learn John 3:16 as a kid? Yes, I did. And have felt for years a tremendous amount of gratitude for what God did for the world. And for me. But gratitude isn't anywhere near close to love. Intimacy. Trust.
What I've learned over the last several years is that I am a son of God. I belong to Him. I'm not a slave who has done her best work, and God is very pleased with me - woo hoo! Servant of the month for Becca Davis! No, I'm not a servant, a slave. I'm a son. I eat at the big table with the King. And he doesn't want me to just call him "King". I call him Abba, Father.
So Roger asked me on Sunday what thoughts I had about the sermon. I was excited to say that my biggest thought about the sermon was that I heard it differently than I did 10 years ago. It was so good to experience the Spirit saying "Look, Bec. You know you're a son of God. You know He loves you at your core. You know you don't have to paint a good look on the outside of your skin that covers up the inside. The Father has been pursuing you and transforming your mind so that you don't think like a slave anymore. You think like a son."
Now that's something to be grateful for.
I'm pretty excited about the next few days. I've purchased some good educational and super fun toys for my kids. My hubby is going to get a few things he's been looking at - it will be fun to give to them. We've had a good time looking for ways to give to others. Each year we step that up in our lives brings more and more joy and depth to this Christmas season. (I've a lot more to share but another time - maybe a New Year's post). But the thing I'm most excited about today is the opportunity to celebrate Immanuel - God with Us.
Where would we be if God hadn't sent Christ to save us? And not just to save us from sin and death but also to make us sons of God. And not just sons of God but co-heirs with Christ. There aren't even words to describe how this makes my heart feel now.
I think I wanted to write about this because that I feel and think "differently" is a huge marker in my life. So that's how my heart feels about the truth of Colossians 3:26-4:1 - different. And that word represents healing, freedom, understanding, faith, acceptance, the constant putting off of old ways, the resolve to not let shame rule me, the daily decision to look down deep inside to the core of who I am and look for God sitting there. Waiting to tell me how He sees me. How much He loves me. How He wants to instruct me b/c He cares so much about what I'm doing in His Kingdom. Waiting to tell me I'm a son and get all the inheritance that His other son, Jesus the Christ, gets. What??!!! That is crazy. Crazy, crazy love.
Merry Christmas, to my family and friends, acquaintances and people who randomly found this blog! I just wanted you to know how blessed I am to feel different.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

there's so much to blog about... ugh!! here are the highlights:

we actually pulled off a surprise for Roger last Thursday with an incredible celebration lunch for his 10+ years at Student Life. There's a post just about him coming soon, but you can read a little of what others think at Kinsley's stop.

2 christmas parties down - 5 to go. Before Saturday. Busy but really fun this year. I'm looking forward to a week of celebrating with lots of different groups of people. Tomorrow night: the girls from my small group and their husbands. Excited about that!!

My sister came down from Louisville this past weekend to join me, Roger, my dad and 3 INCREDIBLE friends. We worked hard all Saturday in Pike Road and were successful in getting all the remaining family items out of Dad's old house. AND were able to go through the house and make piles of what was trash and what goes to Goodwill. Now I only need to find people to help take care of those piles...

Roger hurt his back in yesterday's activities so he's been down most of the day. And my knee has been swollen and stiff so I'm hobbling around. We are quite a pair at 36 years old.

Kinsley turns 1 on Friday. Here's a recent pic for you to ooh and ahh over. She's a blessing.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

ok so I realized last night that this new blog is already showing up in some places so i might as well start writing and not wait for a perfect debut. there's a life lesson there, i promise.

Snow! they're talking about the possibility of swirling snow flurries. sounds good to me! I'm really a Colorado/Montana/Wyoming girl at heart so I'm ready for a little white stuff and cold weather. plus, we have 2 christmas parties tomorrow - snow sounds perfect.

i'm going upstairs now to get the kids and tell them about the snow. I can already hear the BIG PLANS they'll be making. at least we'll be home tomorrow and can watch every flake drop out of the sky.

I'm thankful for my husband especially this morning and the job God has given him. it wears on his head and heart in huge ways sometimes. well, most of the time. but i'm thankful that he's getting to participate in Kingdom work in such a way that is suited to how God made him. and i'm learning how better to pray for and support him. i might be saying that for the next 30 years since i'm not sure how much better i've gotten at it the past 6 years...

i like ellipsis... and i know i don't use them in the proper grammatical way... and i'm not sure grammatical is a word...

i'd rather stay here and purge my brain of all that's rolling around in there, but there are children to wake, a dog to feed, lunches to pack, clothes to fold... first, kids to kiss and tell about SNOW.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Rookie.

I'm trying to figure out this new blog before I publish it.